Have applied to law school.. so scary. Keeping my fingers crossed - can't wait to live on my own again and not be watched all the time.

Had a family brunch today - I was pretty good, but not good enough! Never good enough of course

I don't feel any smaller either - so depressing and disappointing

Family always complicates things. Loving them, hating me... how to reconcile those things?

Doing fine, but never good enough. Applying to law school - super scary idea.

oats with water cinnamon and flax [200]
crackers [200]
peanut butter [200]
slimquick powder in water [0]

total: 600

gross

bran with milk [200]
slimquick powder with lots of water [0]

keeping strong.

Banana [100]
Cottage Cheese [100]
Granola Bar [90]
Fish [100]

Total: 390

Rice [150]
Cheese [200]
Spinach [50]

Total: 400

Granola Bar [100]
Grapes [25]
Yogurt [100]
Cereal Bar [75]
Trout [150]

Total:  450

Bran with milk [150]
Wrap [200]
Granola Bar [100]

Total: 450

Bran with milk [150]
Banana [100]
Granola Bar [100]
Peanut Butter [200]
Hummus [200]
Pita [250]
Chocolate [250]

Total: 1000

Obviously not including the calories burned during my workouts

I wish I could eat less. My boyfriend makes sure I eat all day every day. Not to be rude, but the only good thing about it is that I can actually go to the bathroom every day. Which is unheard of really.

I can't even leave my bedroom. The rest of the house scares me. It's so messy and chaotic. It gets in my head and I start to imagine all the ways I could clean it; but i'm not allowed.

Inescapable and Unapologetic

Bran with milk [200]
Pancake [100]
Coffee [100]
Cottage Cheese [50]
Vegetable Soup [100]
Chicken [50]
Brazil Nuts [150]
Chocolate [250]

Total: 1000