yesterday I had

cottage cheese (110)
Banana (100)
turkey sarnie (350)
pizza crust (gawd knows how badly I fucked that up)

so not great. gonna exercise it all OFF

Lost 2.2 lbs this past week. So glad for that.

Going for a run in a bit!

Has a salad and some sugar-free jello last night. Had a banana and three crackers with cheese today. oh and a tbsp of peanut butter. and a piece of bread. with butter. Ew.

today:

1 cup of grapes
2 slices of fat free turkey with mustard

Okay for the sake of honesty, today has been:

Bread: 200
Candy: 300

and I'm gonna have a salad with no dressing for dinner.

Baby steps

Weighed in. Gained. eff eff eff.

I'm back on track though - gonna lose all the weight in a  fury of determination and embarrassment.

Added more exercise in. Trying to stay positive, but really I'm freaking.

stuck in a rut. haven't lost. didn't eat anything today - hopefully that will help.

Definitely been better the last two days... Eating more than I wanted, but eating ANYTHING is more than I want, so I am getting happier. Much better than the Easter Weekend Fiasco. I don't know if I'll lose this week, or just stay the same, but I'm trying to make it so I don't gain!!!

Scariest thing in the world: gaining weight.

I lost 2.5 lbs last week. So happy.

But I feel like I have been fucking it up ever since the weekend started. Easter celebrations, happiness over having done so well... they've all lulled me into a false sense of security. of deserving.

I hope I don't gain this week, but I still have until thursday or friday to weigh myself so I hope I can get back on the horse. like, right now.

fingers crossed I can turn this around.