keskiviikko 18. marraskuuta 2009

today I had organic cereal and soymilk, a granola bar, some random shit that a friend at school shared with me that I couldn't say no to because I was so goddam hungry, rainbow trout, rice and salad. Oh and of course a fuck-ton of chocolate because my body craves it EVERY DAY.

So that's what? 6,000,000 calories?

Okay, maybe its 950 plus however much chocolate I ate. Which is probably like 200-300...

I hate bingeing. Especially since I am incapable of making myself throw up. Which I would if I could.

I wanna dieeee. Gotta get me some serious will-power.
Lähettänyt klo

3 kommenttia:

  1. JK18. marraskuuta 2009 klo 5.06

    huh funny... i had exactly the same routine today. i have no idea why i binged. plus for some reason, i just CRAVED a damn chocolate today. if i was born back in the 60's, my body would be in the 'fine' category; today, i'm an obese, fat-thighed girl.

    hey emma, i'm planning to go on just liquids for next 3 days. I"M GOING TO TRY. u wanna join.....?

    VastaaPoista
  2. Anonyymi18. marraskuuta 2009 klo 6.15

    No, you don't want to throw up, because then it becomes the "solution" to all your problems and your life goes to hell even more than it already is. But I'm sorry.

    VastaaPoista
  3. Anonyymi18. marraskuuta 2009 klo 6.18

    It's not will-power, it's fear of food, it's paralyzing fear. I'm so hungry right now, but every time I think of food, I get so scared of it, like it's a monster that will eat me instead of vise-versa. Like there's germs or a disease, or a monster or poisonous spiders, or the worst thing you can think of, I think if someone gave me a plate of food and made me eat, I'd burst into tears, I'm that scared of it, right now. This is very bad. 950 calories is not bad. 0 is.

    VastaaPoista

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