Exam done. Panic has subsided to some degree, but not completely. Still need scales.

Things that would make me happy:

Having my diet pills arrive in the mail already
Reaching a weight of 109 lbs ASAP
Not feeling like a failure when I binge
Not feeling like a failure when I cannot purge it all
Being able to jog for more than 30 mins every day
More money in the bank
A ring on my finger ;)
Going skiing for Christmas with my man
Not feeling like every person I see is judging me
Being able to eat in front of others without freaking
Not having family members force me to eat
Getting an A+ in every class
Having hair that doesn't require so much maintenance to look good
Never getting pimples
Being able to wear any type of jeans without looking obese
Looking awesome in my bikini
Having epic/gorgeous heels in my closet
Having control over my life.


ARGH.