Things are going well for me right now, but tomorrow I am going out with friends to a club. Dancing will definitely burn off the calories, but I am afraid of alcohol calories. I don't usually drink because of the calories, so I might just have one vodka and diet coke, and then switch to just diet coke and hope they don't notice!

One of the reasons I rarely go out dancing is that I know I am the fat friend, and I feel so self concious. I don't think I deserve to dress up and have a good time, because of my weight. I hate it so much, because I love to dance. I just wish I didn't feel like people were staring at me, making fun of me, judging me... it's the worst feeling in the world. I am going to try and ignore those bad feelings, because I want to use the dancing to burn calories.

Le Boyfriend is coming to visit this weekend - hopefully he doesn't try and make me eat anything. I'll live on diet coke as long as possible, but I'll likely have some sushi for dinner with him tomorrow. That should be all the food I'm eating though - I don't plan for anything else. Luckily he's not coming until after dinner today, so that's one bullet I can dodge.

Fingers crossed!