Notorious

Wow, I am notoriously bad at posting, but this is crazy.

I have been varying my caloric intake a lot from day to day... some are less than 500, some are more than 1000 (not on purpose usually). My metabolism has been benefitting, but I don't think it's letting me lose a LOT of weight. I feel like a heffer...

I can't wait for skiing to start so that I can spend all day burning more calories than I can count.

xoxo

food is the enemy

Last night I had sushi (200 cals) and some chocolate (so that's a disaster)

Today I have had some toast (300 cals) and a cookie (probably 200)

so I hate myself...

Disgust

Every time I eat, I feel sick to my stomach.

Could this be psychosomatic? I think it might be. My guilt is making me want to vomit. Now if only I could comply!

Greek

Yesterday was so promising! I had a granola bar for lunch, but then my bf decided we should go out for greek food. I was soo hungry too.

appetizers: 400 cals
meal: 200 cals

aaaand a couple bites of galaktobourikos.

Death to meeeeeee

Feel fat this morning, still avoiding the scale.

Had two crepes with jam for breakfast to get my metab going again, since I have been lacking in the BM division... ew I know. But only 200 cals to get things going again!

I'll keep you updated on my day :)

think thin lovelies!

Ugh

So I was with my boyfriend last night, and he made me eat a hamburger!

At least it was home-made, so it was just lean ground beef and a bun, but still! Disaster!

Today will be better :)

Onwards and upwards! (or downwards on the scale, I guess)

Another Day

Early class is horrible. But I suffered through it somehow!

Kashi Bar: 150 cals

And now I undertake a 4 hour car ride - so nothing more until dinner - which I can hopefully get out of anyways!

xoxo lovelies!

Success

yoga: -400 cals

Carrots & Hummus: 200 cals
Bread: 200 cals
Hershey Kisses: 200 cals

NET: 200 cals!!

AWESOME

A Brave New World

Yesterday was yesterday. I can't change it. But I can do better today!

I have class from noon to 3 and a job interview from 3.45 to 7pm. Yay fasting!!

Just call me Uncle Karl.

xoxo

Death

death by dinner. am now jumping rope to punish myself.

french onion soup: 400 cals
mussels: 100 cals
bread: 200 cals

jumping rope: -300 cals

I'm sorry.

Frustration

My doctor was sooo wrong. Eating "healthy" food and being "normal" got me no-where. I am still fat and depressed.

SO that means I am back to my ED ways! And happy about it, I guess.

No food yet today. Going out for dinner, might have some salad or veggie soup!

I'll keep you posted. I am not sure of my CW since I am afraid to step on the scale, but my BMI is definitely over 20. Let's not go there.

99 lbs is the goal!

500 cals / day until I get there.

xoxo